It was only four days since she had left and he was already feeling mixed emotions of anger , irritation, sadness and many more which obviously can't be described in writing.But he thought that if you look at it as a whole and combine everything together the main feeling was of sadness. He was sad.
He didn't know why he was sad and didn't want to be sad. The evening of the first day and rest of the second day went of fine and normal. He was talking to her many times after he dropped her at railway station, It was the third day, he started feeling irritated when she was not picking her numerous calls and simply sent an sms that she is slightly busy talking with her relatives and wouldn't be able to pick up his calls and we will talk on sms. So that day passed with all of her sms replies in mono and bi syllables till he exhausted all his questions and then stopped sending it. It was the fourth day when he started feeling angry as she was not replying to his sms also, forget about calls. He had a heated argument with his manager that day on some small issue instead of him knowing well that it was his mistake not his managers that he has not completed his work. But he couldn't help it, his manager came at the wrong time for pointing out that he has not finished his work and others are waiting for him to finish so they can start. But completing the work was the last thing on his mind today.
He left for home at that time and regretted it the moment he reached home. He was feeling very angry as why can't she talk to him or at least send a sms. He called her again and her cell was switched off now. Suddenly he felt very sad, He never felt like this ever before in his life, even when he left his home for the first time to go to college or came out of college to take a job. He didn't knew and was not able to understand why he felt like that, some thing was wrong or may be right.
He met her exactly nine months before and didn't liked her much at that time. She was almost as same as all the other girls are. Proud, slightly arrogant , somewhat show off and many such other things which obviously many will know (obviously only boys :) ). And also at that time he felt that there was also something very attractive and unique about her. He didn’t know what it was but guessed that may be it was in the way she talked or in the way she listened to him or may be in the way she laughed at his bad jokes or got angry at the use of foul words from him or the way she reacted to him sometimes (as if what he is saying is worth nothing or sometimes gave her whole hearted support to his argument even when it was not correct).May be this was why he wanted to see her more , meet her more , talk to her more, but that time he was not sure of the reason. He has met many girls before and it never happened like this. He took her id from her friend and started sending her mails and in every mail thinking to ask about her number but never had the courage to do so. Then on fine day feeling very scared and thinking of the number of ways she would tell no, he asked for her number. He was suprpised and shocked to get her reply with her phone number and with a small note saying that she was wondering that why didn’t he asked for the number before. He felt slightly jealous thinking that how many boys have asked her number before like this. He started calling her keeping a note of how many times he is calling her and how many times she is calling her back. Slowly from once a week to twice a week it reached to twice or thrice everyday. It seemed like talking on phone so many times was also not enough for finishing there talk and he began to think of asking her out for dinner or may be a movie. He was sure that she gave some hints that she also wanted to meet but she never asked him directly about this. He began thnking on how to ask her out and again thought of the numerous possibilities in which she can say no. But there was a bigger problem than this, Whether to ask her out for movie or for dinner or for both. And it came to him that better ask her out for movie and even if they don’t talk much atleast they can watch movie, being silent otherwise will look very odd, sitting in a restaurant without talking to each other. So first problem solved he came to think of the second problem. No matter how much and how many times he tried he was not able to ask her out. After some time deciding that she can’t aske her out while talking , the sms came to his rescue. He wanted to send a mail first but thought that in the mail she will have lots of space to write why she will not come, but in sms she can only say no. So he sent her sms and she came for movie and after they had dinner together and after that spent a lot of time in a coffee parlour and after that he dropped her home. Soon it became like they were old child hood friends sharing everything , going everywhere together and spending most of the time with each other.
When suddenly one day it occurred to him that is she had just become like her girl friend, obviously he has never proposed to her but he thought that the one girl he can get married to and spend life together was her. But the comfort of friend ship and smoothness of it prevented him from doing it. But deep down inside he was scared that what if she says no , what if she is simply not interested and considers him only as her good/best friend. Basically he was much to scared to loose her friendship now than worrying about future and seeing her as his wife. The happiness of having her as a friend was much better than sadness of losing her as a girl friend. So he just put all this thing in the back burner simply hiding it behind the excuse that there is still time left for all of this and he can always decide it later.
But now he was feeling miserable, wanted to do nothing but lay down on his bed and stare at the ceiling. He tried calling her number, but again the phone was switched off. The days passed by and he kept calling her twice or thrice a day everyday praying to god that this time the phone will ring and she will pick up the call and say that she somehow lost her phone or there was not network in her area of the world or anything, He didn't care.But as always the phone was switched off. He tried asking some of her friends and everybody told the same thing that they are not able to contact her.
Then one day god finally listened to him and she picked up the call. He was so happy he started blabbering in the phone speaking in some alien language, scolding her shouting at her. She was very calm and simply told him that she is in train right now and will reach in another two hours. He felt like a sudden lightning of happiness hit him and asked when is her train coming without realizing it. She told him the train by which she was coming and asked him not to come to pick her up in the station as she had some work and she will reach home late. He was surprised and said ok deciding that he is going to the station anyways.
He got ready in an instant and went to a shop got a gift and a nice card and took an auto. While in auto he scribbled some nice lines on it and waited uneasily to reach station. When he reached the station and by the time found out the platform number, the train was already on the platform.
He rushed to the back of the train and started checking all the compartments one by one running at the same time. While running he had a fleeting look of a newly wed couple standing beside a large numbers of luggage, the girl looking obviously unhappy for a newly wed. He stopped suddenly as if hit by a lightning and looked back, the card and the gift dropping from his hand..........
I was waiting in the platform for my train which was supposed to come after half an hour and suddenly saw a gift wrapped box and a card lying nearby on the platform floor. Wondering I went further and saw written on the card in bright green color “I LOVE YOU………………………………………………………………
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